One thing that I really, really wish from this cancer was that the pain was taken away from my family and friends. I hate to hurt those that are close to me and know that telling my Father that I have a limited time on this earth will a) not improve our relationship, b) not gain any help/ support for my family/friends; therefore sometimes you have to keep the stark truth from others. - that is my way/ there perceived way of coping with the uncertainty of CANCER!!!
Should I keep the truth away from others to avoid hurting / upsetting them?
Not any easy question for anyone to answer - but it really upsets me hurt those emotionally that are close to me. Andrew is hurting so much at the moment and is worried about what will happen next - sometimes it is very difficult to look to the future too far; as it hurts him to think that I may not be there (and it hurts me too!!!). But life is for living and laughing - which is what we generally try to do, but just be aware that we can have our down days and we are not brave, or special - just trying to cope with the uncertainty of cancer. Like many other people in the world who cope with the uncertainty of terminal or debilitating illness and cancer: we smile and are joyful for today and like our friends and family to smile and enjoy time with us.
Love and hugs to you all
Kathryn XXXXX
Oh dear!
ReplyDeleteThe decisions you are facing are tough and very personal - but they are YOUR decisions.
Hope you've managed to work through whatever it is that's bothering you? You know where I am if you want to talk.
Sending all my love
Bev
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Take care sorry not commented before.Thoughts with you
ReplyDeleteLove Jane xx